It’s Me – Life.

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You’re in that moment – everything becomes clear.

You start to see things for what they really are.

You realize that what you’ve always truly wanted,

has been right in front of you this entire time.

And then, the obvious question comes into your head-

How did you not see that before?

 

You start to think. You think a lot.

Until you find a reason to blame yourself.

You believe that you could’ve done better.

That you probably didn’t give it your all.

That you didn’t fight hard enough.

Or maybe got distracted by something.

How could you have lost sight of your goal?

After all, you always followed the plan that you made.

But you should know that it wasn’t you.

 

In fact , it was me – Life.

 

Love, happiness and success

I saw you dream about all those things

And made sure that they came your way.

Just not how you had imagined them to be.

 

Because I wanted you to learn.

That the world’s this twisted place.

Where you need to rise above and move on

No matter how much it hurts

Or what you face

 

And I know that it wasn’t easy for you.

Believe me, I saw those tears that you tried to hide.

And even though you hated me back then

I stood there, right by your side

 

You kept asking me why I was so tough on you.

And told me that I was unfair.

You said that you wanted to give up.

And walk away, to somewhere.

 

I never answered.

Even though I really wanted to.

Because time stopped me –

I had to wait.

Till you reached to the point

Where you’re standing now.

And now that you’re here at last,

My silence finally breaks –

 

I spotted you, when we first met.

When you held my hand,

And took your first step.

You fell. But you would always get back up.

And I knew, right then.

That you were a diamond in making.

 

So here’s the truth –

I will always choose you.

So forgive me if I’m hard on you sometimes.

And know that it’s because you’re special to me.

 

Because I know that you have what it takes.

To become fierce and relentless.

Passionate, grateful and kind

Because I think you’re amazing

And superheroes like you

Are hard to find….

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Where you Belong

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Thinking about it. That’s where it all begins.

Right there. In the middle of the night.

Your’e wide awake.

And no matter what you do – you just can’t stop.

There’s this need to find an answer.

A need to figure it out. That one thing –

Whatever it is.

And in that moment you decide.

To believe that you know what your’e doing.

To have faith in the journey.

You spend hours. Days. Weeks. Months.

And then there’s that one moment.

When everything makes sense.

You realize that it was worth it.

That you made it through.

You find an answer to all the why’s.

And once again, hope wins.

Against all the odds.

And it doesn’t seem to be so difficult after all.

You’re no longer staring at the ceiling.

You find a reason.

You find strength.

You look at yourself in the mirror.

And you know that something’s different.

Your’e different.

You’ve evolved.

Into this person who is unbreakable.

Who’s learned how to trust the journey.

Who’s accepted that it’s never going to get easier.

Who’s now ready to do whatever it takes.

You’ve got that smile on your face.

The one that shows that your’e brave.

Your eyes light up.

Burning with passion.

Your’e no longer thinking.

It’s time to go out there and get it.

Get what you’ve wanted for so long.

Get what has kept you awake.

It’s your chance.

And nothing’s stopping you this time.

Because you’ve decided.

Your’e done searching.

This is exactly what you want.

And exactly where you belong.

And before you know it –

There will be no more sleepless nights.

 

Hope will win again.

And so will you….

The Sun Will Rise

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And sometimes its just about taking it all in – one breath at a time. Between all the craziness and uncertainty. Between the hope and the fear. Between what seems like the end and a what may be new beginning.

Its about sitting back and doing nothing for once. About not trying so hard. About letting it go, even when it feels like it’s worth holding on to. About accepting things as they are.

Its about keeping up the fight. Even when you think you don’t have what it takes. Even when it seems like you won’t ever be the same person again. Even when the odds aren’t in your favour.

Its about being grateful. Because you made it so far. Because your’e lucky enough to have another chance to give it a shot. Because you know that someone cares.

Its about celebrating the small wins.

About learning from every loss.

About growing.

About getting stronger.

And sometimes it can get hard to do all those things.

Between the chaos and the silence.

About everything that matters.

Even then, you must go on.

Because you deserve to get all that you’ve ever dreamed of.

Because each one of us has the power.

To make a choice – something that we forget.

And sometimes, a reminder is all that you need.

Don’t be afraid. Step back. Fight. Let go. Be happy. Don’t give up yet. Breathe.

 

From Me to Me

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It’s been so long.

10 years now.

Yet you don’t seem to be a stranger,

Somehow.

I still remember,

That cold winter day

Your piercing grey eyes

And innocent face.

You still seem to have it,

Your timeless smile

It’s just hidden somewhere.

Since a long while.

How I wish

you’d let it show.

Free yourself of what holds you down,

And simply let it go

Remember the promise that you once made?

You would do whatever it takes

And never let your dream fade.

Our eyes meet.

And I can see it, it’s clear.

Your mind is full of questions.

And there’s so much that you fear.

And as I look back at you,

I realize.

You’ve grown taller.

Stronger and wise.

I’m proud of you.

And I always will be.

You’re my hero, always remember that

My 30-year-old me

So, stop overthinking this.

You will find a way.

To reignite that spark.

And forever it will stay.

 

A Moon Lit Night

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She looks at the moon,

and admires its grace

Wondering how it could be so selfless,

Spreading nothing but light,

Even though its surrounded by darkness

 

She tries to make patterns,

Connecting the stars

As they let go of their disguise

Showing nothing but courage,

In a world full of lies

 

She stops looking for reasons,

Forgets the questions,

that were on her mind

And embraces the happiness that surrounds her

One breath at a time

 

She’s never felt this way before,

She no longer wants to go away

There’s something that feels just right,

Something that makes her want to stay

 

And as she walks across the street

She looks up,

Just one more time

Amazed by the patch of white,

That proudly hangs

Among the pitch-black sky…

Shooting Star

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Don’t give up yet.

For even a shooting star loses its beauty once it passes by.

Yet it leaves us with hope.

Hope that gives us a reason to believe.

To believe that tomorrow we might get exactly what we wished for.

And then, it will all make sense.

It will be worth it.

And all that you will remember is that one night.

That one night when you decided to look up instead of looking away.

Don’t lose that chance.

Dream instead. About mountains and seas.

About white horses and carriages.

About magical creatures and giant beanstalks.

Because it’s not too crazy and you’ll never be too old.

Reset the limits. Break free.

It’s never too late.

Too late to witness a miracle.

So, don’t.

Don’t give up.

Because shooting stars do exist.

Remember?

Look up.

Make a wish.

And dream…

 

 

 

 

 

 

Ranting About It.

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Usually I would smile,

Say something motivating and make myself feel better.

But that day I simply stood there.

Torn between sadness and anger.

Fear and hope.

Deciding whether I should keep fighting or simply give up.

It wasn’t that I hadn’t been through any ups and downs in life.

In fact, nothing had ever come easy.

 

It always demanded everything that I had in me.

After countless sleepless nights of hard work,

I had gotten a chance to stand where I was today.

Surrounded by everything that I had once said that I wanted.

I kept saying that this too would pass.

But on the inside, I wasn’t so sure.

 

Would I be able to get up again?

Even after reaching a low that I had never imagined?

Did I still have what it would take to keep moving?

Was I strong enough to hold myself together while I was at it?

I just couldn’t think straight anymore.

But there was no point looking back now.

So, what was next?

Spending the day accepting defeat?

Talking myself into believing that it was all going to be okay on its own?

No.

That was not it.

 

Maybe it was time to take up a new challenge.

To stop worrying about what went wrong.

To spend time thinking about what I was going to do to make it right.

I couldn’t just stand there and do nothing, waiting.

I had given up too much to let it all go away.

I was going to do everything that I could to make it work.

 

Yes.

That sounded way better.

Ranting had finally paid off.

I had survived yet another tough day.

Life – 1, Me – 0

But that was about to change,

Because I had a new plan….

 

Picture Perfect

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What is perfection anyway?

A pretty face?

Something that makes you sigh?

Or is it just a blatant lie?

Hidden in a beautiful disguise

 

Is it the way that we choose to see things?

Or is it only about what is revealed by time

Does it come across unannounced?

Or is there some kind of sign?

 

Is it hard to hold onto?

Or is it wise to let go?

Is it worth gambling all that you can have?

And forgetting all that you believe you know?

 

Searching for it endlessly-

Isn’t that what we usually do?

Not once stopping to look back

Thinking that there’s no way

That you could have found it so soon

 

Maybe it’s just another name,

For something mysterious, that doesn’t exist

Or maybe someone will walk up to you someday

And give it a whole new meaning,

Clearing up the mist

 

What is, perfection then anyway? –

A moment when you realize

That nothing could be more perfect

Than what lies before your eyes…